[papadopul]

thank you all for the input. . and i'd still welcome more!

detlef - i would like to respond to your reply directly, as your comment was very interesting to me. i'm curious to know how you intuited this, and if there is any more information you can provide about this guide and the three to come.

let me give you some more background. some years ago (i think it was '03-ish) i had gotten to the point where i was very much in connection with my guides and it reached a level where i felt it was actually hindering my growth process.

at the time i was indiscrimantly "checking in" with my guides for just about everything, and i was becoming increasingly frustrated when following the guidance would lead me down a blind alley, or in some cases, to some extremely disheartening experiences.

at the time i already had the understanding that growth can come of suffering, but i was also becoming increasingly aware that it need not be that way. i started to get outright suspicious when i was repeatedly guided to stay in a relationship that was clearly not in my best interests. in this relationship certain patterns of negative events would get repetitively triggered, and it was way past the point where any more soul growth could be gleaned from the experiences. it was pretty much subjecting myself to needless suffering out of a false belief that i needed to become more "compassionate" and "understanding" toward this other individual.

i won't get into all of the aspects of this experience because there are many. the bottom line is that it got to the point where one night i called in all of my guides and basically fired them. my reasoning was that i couldn't really trust that all of these guides were really acting in my best interest, or could even comprehend what my best interest really was.

i had become of the mind that my guides, or at least the vast majority of them, were of a lower level of spiritual evolution than myself. i also suspected that there were some negative entities cleverly disguised as spiritual guides in the mix as well. quite frankly, i figured that i could guide myself much better than they by simply listening to my own internal guidance system. having all of the additional chatter out of the way just made it easier for me to listen inside.

indeed, since that time, i have found my life to be much more pleasant to live, and myself much less vulnerable to negative greeting and its attendant difficulties.

so, anyhow, i am curious about this guide who is still lingering about. i will attempt communication on my own, and if there is anything else you can intuit, i would be grateful for this information.

just to be clear, i generally consider "spiritual guides" to be of 4th or maybe 5th density consciousness. when i was speaking of a higher consciousness entity and/or my higher self earlier, i was referring to an entity of 6th density consciousness, or higher.