[first_pr]

hi last-apoc and welcome,

i have some thoughts on a couple of the questions you ask:

2) would trying to be more service-to-others oriented be seen as service-to-self? i know it sounds crazy, but what if deep down inside i'm just being nice to others so i can ascend? this particular question worries me because i think i'm genuinely trying to be service-to-others but who knows whats going on in my subconsious mind. (maybe i'm overthinking it)!

yeah, you really can think about this so much that it gets over-thought!
but i think that initially, when you first learn about the law of one and the concept of service to others, it is on your mind a lot as you go through daily life. so it might seem to you that you are trying to be sto because you're so conscious of this new way of living.

it actually gets to be a comfortable pattern of life that you don't have to try so hard to accomplish. so my answer to that question would be no, trying to live in sto is not a way of being sts. if you were actually service-to-self charading as service-to-others, in time, that whole hypocrisy would fall apart.

3) can negative feelings be connected with negative energy? if i get frustrated/angry/scared/jealous will that only hurt my progress towards being service-to-others oriented?

i think that the negative feelings you have listed would be more likely to slow down your own personal spiritual progress/vibration, but would not necessarily change your polarity from +sto to -sts. obviously, this would mean not allowing emotions like anger and jealousy to escalate and over-whelm your reasoning ability to the point of commiting a crime.

these are just some of my thoughts on a couple of your concerns. there is a lot of information on the home page under 'start here' that goes into detail about most of the questions you have.

lots of love and light to you in your new journey,
nancy