hey, i'm very excited to have found this site and forum and look forward to discussing things with you all! so i've got some questions regarding ascension, keep in mind i'm not looking for a solid answer, just your thoughts and speculations. 1) video games and competitive sports/games all-together. is competition seen as service-to-self to you guys? i mean if it's friendly competition there should be no problem right? 2) would trying to be more service-to-others oriented be seen as service-to-self? i know it sounds crazy, but what if deep down inside i'm just being nice to others so i can ascend? this particular question worries me because i think i'm genuinely trying to be service-to-others but who knows whats going on in my subconsious mind. (maybe i'm overthinking it) 3) can negative feelings be connected with negative energy? if i get frustrated/angry/scared/jealous will that only hurt my progress towards being service-to-others oriented? 4) drugs, illegal and legal. what are your views on them? would you consider them to be service-to-self? particularly marijuana. i ask this because i think "well something bad had to happen for these drugs to end up in my hands". i think those are my biggest questions i'm wondering, so any and all thoughts are greatly appreciated, thanks!