[Frierlovene]

1) video games and competitive sports/games all-together. is competition seen as service-to-self to you guys? i mean if it's friendly competition there should be no problem right? i would say so long as you are not playing the games where you are killing other people there will be no negative side effects. that being said, if there is an addiction to playing these games, that may not be so good. addictions keep you grounded in the material world and prevent you from living in the moment. however if you are playing just to have fun and not to build your ego, keep on playing.

2) would trying to be more service-to-others oriented be seen as service-to-self? i know it sounds crazy, but what if deep down inside i'm just being nice to others so i can ascend? this particular question worries me because i think i'm genuinely trying to be service-to-others but who knows whats going on in my subconsious mind. (maybe i'm overthinking it) the intention and the act are both important, but it is the effect you have on others that should be the focus. if your service to others has a positive impact on them, then i would say it does not matter why your are doing it.

3) can negative feelings be connected with negative energy? if i get frustrated/angry/scared/jealous will that only hurt my progress towards being service-to-others oriented? the key thing to remember with all negative emotions is that they are all routed in fear. if you wish to work through getting to a place where you have a minimal occurance of negative emotions then when they happen try to trace them back to something you may be fearing. once you have targeted the appropriate fear that caused them, rationalize the fear and find reasons for why it is unnessesary. if you catch yourself consistently and make this practice a habbit then you will be well on your way to being free of them.

4) drugs, illegal and legal. what are your views on them? would you consider them to be service-to-self? particularly marijuana. i ask this because i think "well something bad had to happen for these drugs to end up in my hands". if the drugs are being used to distance yourself from your current situaton then they are not good. this is because they will prevent you from working through your issues. i personally have found that marijuana is something that i used to use to escape from a reality that i did not like. with the way that consciousness is currently accelerating you will find that getting clear has a similar effect as the best halucinagenic or psycotropic drug ever did. you will not get the instant gratification that these drugs my bring, but the end result will be extremely rewarding.