[MgpojuWy]

hi cameron!

thanks for responding...the thing is that i often have "numinous experiences" feeling a strong contact, esp when i'm in the arms of mother nature..as far as "succcess" goes, i'm not talking about earning a lot of money and having a lot of things...

....i want to use my artistery as a singer/songwriter to spread the message we're trying to grasp here on this forum, and also lead the [specific workshops] i used to before i had a hughe psychic breakdown that put me off track for many years, and now it's extremely difficult for me to catch up again. you know, i've been nagging about this in many threads now so i hope this will be the last time.

also there is a strong "racism of age" in sweden esp for women, even if you're not in showbiz it's difficult to get a job if you're over 50...

it really ends up with "nobody knows the trouble i've seen", i know i will never be able to make myself understood totally, and all the same i pursue....

i have been doing and still do a lot of idealistic work and if it was not for the social welfaresysem in sweden, i'd might be living in the streets beeging you guys for money...

good luck to you and your project, life surely is paradoxical, i feel great at the moment, met some of the friends i felt i have to escape from...we had a beautiful moment in my allotment, birds singing, flowers everywhere, raspberries and strawberries ripe to pluck..

...as soon as my mind start brooding i've started to think or say "so"-breath in, "ham"-breath out....

goodnight and thanks for the indirect contact..

liliane