[poRmawayncmop]

i suspect that there's not nearly as much difference in the two paths as we would like to believe. it's all service, we merely have different convictions, and the most efficient path is always that place where you you can be the most helpful, or the most effective in your chosen form of service.

i wouldn't worry to much about the sts path or effects, because i believe i remember ra saying the path is usually chosen late in 2d or very early in 3d, so i think we're all well past that point. there are a million paths back to the one infinite creator and as we journey along we might notice many of them merging together over time, until we are finally left with only two main paths, which i suspect become more similar over time, until one day, many eons in the future they will come together to form one.

the main series of events that lead to my awakening circled around a very inspired concept that i felt the urge to write out. the story itself doesn't need to be explained, but the central idea was that there is no such thing as good or bad/evil, but rather only reason and doubt.

no matter what somebody thinks or believes, there's always reason behind it; my reason for believing something may be someone else's reason for doubting it. but in order to find reason, we have to doubt.

ultimately, we have to view our doubts as divisions, and therefore, illusions that can also be considered catalysts for change. eventually, our doubts would give way to reason (which is the same as saying that any number of seperate paths would eventually merge), and we would be left with a single division (or, two sides/paths/reasons). once this final division is bridged by means of reason, neither reason nor doubt exists, as all has been contemplated and understood. thus, the difference between you and i does not exist.


of course, these concepts are entirely familar to most of you, but i thought i'd share that bit of personal history