i need some serious help figuring this out everyone. i've tried to understand it on my own , i've tried to ask my higher self but i'm getting no where. everything in our lives is a mirror for us showing what we need to work on right? or is it our reaction to everything in our lives that shows us what we need to work on? if our lives is a direct mirror then i've got some serious issues!! this is my life: my mother is dying, my father has parkinsons and has a really hard time communicating. they don't live near me and it drives me crazy that i'm not there to help more. my mother in law that we take care of has dementia, my husband seems to be constantly negative and miserable these days,my son has just started hanging out with a "new" friend who's idea of a good time is staying out all night, getting bombed out of their minds or stoned. his new friend spent 4 days in jail last week. my boss just had a heart attack and is extrememly dejected about certain things that are going on in his life. my dog is a nervous wreck lately because we've been having a thunderstorm a day. meanwhile, there's me.... i am actually quite happy and excited these days. of course i feel concern and worry for all of the issues that are affecting my family but on the other hand i am learning some amazing things, feeling great strides in my spiritual growth. i am in a conundrum. i almost feel guilty for feeling good when everyone else is falling apart. what does all this mean? where do i go from here? i have no desire to wallow in misery and negativity and want to be understanding and able to help in any way i can. thanks everyone for helping me out here. love, megan