[Abarricoss]

this is bizzare i had a dream several weeks ago which involved me walking into this house which was situated in what looked like a rural type property, inside the house was what i thought to be this fairly ordinary looking woman sitting behind a table counting money i didn't find her very attractive .

i then proceeded to ask this woman for sex as she appeared to be a prostitute
she then just looked at me with an uninterested look on her face and said no that she was finished for the day and that i should leave which explained the money on the table she was counting the days takings.

i walked out of the house or brothel with the feeling of not being very significant or desirable to say the least thinking some thing along the lines that a woman that unattractive should take what she can get and i felt quite put out or at least my ego did.

the dream was quite vivid which is why it stuck in my mind any way last night i read the deeper secret which totally blew me away .

http://www.divinecosmos.com/index.ph...=312&itemid=70

what david has written made so much sense to me as i am currently learning to use tarot cards although they are not the average run of the mill tarot cards they are much much better i will not divulge the author as it will
breach forum rules .

i have been constantly pulling the hierophant which is the old system these cards have a new look and meaning attached to them and hierophant is the old world equivalent .

the meaning i got from the card was that there had been a left and right brain split the left brain (male) had upset the right brain (female) and she has stormed away upset.
now this event has happened in my childhood and has basically molded my personalty and how i have related to people through out my life its also the card that represents the root chakra.

i found the childhood memory and understood what had happened but was
not sure how to remedy the situation although i have been focusing on it then
i had the above weird dream which didn't really make sense to me at the time.

several weeks latter being april 28 last night i read the deeper secret
my jaw almost hit the key board it explained my dream perfectly i have been treating my higher self like a prostitute which is why she has turned from me or lost interest and to be honest what woman wouldn't especially when you look down at her as being an unattractive object for the purpose of self indulgence.

i also got the bit about money as i seen my self receiving a huge amount and then feeling in a state of love and happiness i did actually visualize the parties involved receiving love and good fortune by allowing me to have the money.

but that wasn't the point was it ! that is putting conditions on my higher self
or prostituting her and only feeling love and happiness if i get what i want
which is actually ridiculous when you think about it when i could be feeling love and happiness right now by treating my higher self like a madden whom im courting no money needed just love acceptance and respect.

i also drew the equivalent card of the lovers before writing this which is bizzare in itself and the way i choose a card is by shuffling until one falls
out this card represents kundulini activation.

i thought i would share this as it ties in with synchronicity and the truth well
my truth any ways

thanks dw i believe the deeper secret to be spot on

l&l