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hi foo,

boy you really helped me with this, so i am happy to give you my thoughts on this one…

as i said once (in one of your threads) my dear family has had a great deal in what i used to call “the chains keeping me apart from my bliss”, in brief: traditional brazilian family keeps rebel daughter from freedom to guarantee the right ongoing of the name and “fortune”. in other words: do as they say and have an abundant amount of useless things or, be free poor and “damned’… in other words: they are a *** in the **...

i realized that i was afraid of loosing something: things, comfort and their “love” (i call love a thing in this case because it could be negotiable, and love as i understand now does not go into this category).

but … when you said that thing about acceptance i realized that i was the one not accepting things!!!!!!! i was afraid and that’s all! when i realized that i was living in hell by fear of hell… i had a shock… i stopped….

in other words: it’s not the outside that mattered, but how i was taking it…. my fear was the only problem, and only thing that needed to be changed!

now i say what i think, but not in rage because i don’t need to convince anyone anymore.
now i can even work to get my bills paid… because i am convinced that i created this situation with my anger, so this reality does not contradict my dream of freedom with abundance anymore: i see clearly that i believed in this, i expected this by not wanting it and for that reason putting all my attention in it, complaining, fighting…oh my… for so long!
now… i can be here, in peace, in knowing. what i now know is enough to make me feel the anticipated joy of what is to come! i already saw that working…. i just decided to change the expectations…

good vibes bro