[carreraboyracer]

"so what happens when life gets in the way of becoming alive?"

i find it amazing that there's so much synchronicity revolving around this topic right now. you're asking the same questions that more than one of us is trying to figure out at the moment. the shortest answer is: don't let it.
there was a time (when i was much younger) when i was overwhelmed with more than i could deal with. the only way to function and survive at the time was not to deal with it. i was to a point where i could turn off all my feelings and emotions like a light switch. it took a very special person many months of effort to get me to open my heart again. since that time i've come full circle i think. now i face life with an open heart, and at times it hurts. a lot. but if you listened to the most recent free reading, you might take away the same thing i did: if you are experiencing pain, then there's something your higher self feels you need to deal with. it's not always easy to figure out, but you have to do it for yourself. i'm going through that again at the moment, and frankly i feel like i have a lot of things to learn and can't figure out which one it is this time. be open with those around you. you never know when they'll say the thing that you weren't thinking of to give you that "aha!" moment.

i guess i'm rambling a bit, so hopefully that's enough for now. does this help at all?