[reiruviartugs]

hey mellissa,

don't be so hard on yourself! it must be difficult to give up the nicotine - i see so many people battling it - but sometimes we all need some little crutch to help us over the bumps - at least it's not some harder, more expensive drugs you are addicted to! it is admirable to want to be perfect but i don't think it's an obligation or a necessity for the leap into 4d - do you?! i bet you are a kind and loving soul much, much more than 51% of the time?!

since my crash in '00 (and going back to the crash in '98 that sadly ended my son's life) - i've pretty well been addicted to food and online shopping - these are my comfort things - although since i am no longer working and living on my salaried pension i can't really afford to be eating and buying too much - i am in debt (mortgaged my house again) and so be it...i feel fortunate and thankful to have as much as i do...

most especially i am grateful for my spiritual growth and access to information and friends on this website - these have saved my life because i now know that there is a plan (that i helped to make!) and so i am trying to hang on and do what i came to do...help us all to move on over into the next dimension of light and love (where my loved ones will be waiting - son, sister, dad, grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, friends - can't hardly wait to be with them all again!)

what makes me saddest right now is seeing the pain and suffering in the world - i can empathise with bereaved mothers especially - even though i know it is part of the 'frying pan' plan - it is hard to watch...but what can we do except project our love to all parts of our oneness? and i think part to this too is to love ourselves as much as others - despite what we see as our 'faults' - don't you think??

thank you again foo - for prompting more thoughts and healing on this subject - i am glad that you have survived all your traumas to be here with your wisdom and love to share as well....!!

with love to all,

kathy