she says that there seems to have been a pattern of three major waves of wanderers. the first of which are now in their 40's and 50's: quote: they had a difficult adjustment and many wanted to commit suicide in order to return 'home'. they normally have a good home life, excellent occupation and everything that we would consider to make up a good life. but something was missing because they never felt they belonged here. they didn't like the violence and ugliness they found in this world. they wanted to return home even though they had no idea, consciously, where that home might be.