[jokilewqs]

i'd have to say that i would qualify as a first-waver. interestingly, i didn't have a huge desire to go "home", and haven't been of a suicidal ilk at all. but i felt like i really did try to reject this planet, or this incarnation, or what was happening in them...

as a kid i had pretty bad asthma. smoggy days, over-exertion, and as well overly emotional situations would set me off.

and i was tested and found to be allergic to just about everything: grass, house-dust, dog and cat hair, all dairy products. i got shots every week for a couple of years as treatment, to build up my immunities or whatever. i hate to think what crap was in those shots. hi ho, done is done.

never fit in either as a kid. and early on i figured out, "this all just isn't right! this isn't how it's supposed to be! what have they done to this place?!" it was obvious to me in about 1975 at the age of fourteen that we were pooping in our own bed, that distribution of resources on the planet was entirely out of whack, and along the way tricky-dick nixon resigned and got pardoned and i knew the score with politicians and their kin right then and ever since. i can see why many might have wished to check out stepping into such an incarnation.

in my early teens i was gifted with a series of dreams and out-of-body experiences which didn't make things easier, but absolutely gave me a direction to look in and search, a quest to be joined. this is perhaps why i never really thought of bowing out of the game. i was given a direct set of experiences that we are something much more than just a biological extrusion of nature eventually due to just rejoin the compost heap. we are consciousness and continue after we drop these vehicles.

perhaps the apparent strength of first-wavers is mostly due to the long haul we have had waiting to come to this time we are now in. i've had a sense for these times coming since i was in my early teens (i'm 46 now) but to finally see it unfolding is amazing. and it's great to be awake, too. i think i spent about a decade trying my damnedest to stay asleep, late 20's through mid-late 30's, but it never really worked. i was just waiting really.

the long haul certainly has allowed for lots of work to get done, experience to be acquired, karmas balanced (hopefully). it allows for a great deal of perspective as well on just how quickly the world has changed. i mean, really, the first, hefty, and clunky, hand-held calculators had only just started coming out from texas instruments and whoever else in the early seventies, when i was in junior high school. now there is the i-phone.

but most cars can't get 30 mpg?! frustrating world!

anyway, just some stray insights from a "first-waver". which, as a title or placement doesn't matter - all waves will meet the shore together soon. all this time we've been out at sea, water molecules circulating, not becoming waves until the continental shelf rises under us, and the ocean becomes shallow, and we all pile up onto the shore as one huge wave...

2012ish would be my guess for the big "surf's up dudes!"

waving hello/goodbye,

love, blessings, and abundance,

frank-o