[icedrakona]

it would seem, to me, that the only time i am moved to add anything to the discussion here is to bring something to the attention of everyone to get some feedback about. if that be so, then, so be it. every group needs someone who helps the others check in with themselves.

as we begin to take strides into this new sense of being, unsure of the way ahead, yet excited about the possibilities, i have made it my part to ask questions about what we may be experiencing and feeling along the way. in truth, i don't believe that we are experiencing anything that hasn't been experienced by those who have followed this path for us from times past. the path to enlightenment is littered with corpses. some laid down by choice, others, the cost of the journey. let us never lose sight of just how real this journey can be. we can express it as a joyful journey, and indeed it is. it is a dance that begins with a simple tap of the feet to the beat and rhythm of life.
you'll have to forgive me that one, i just got finished watching "happy feet" and i couldn't resist.

however, i feel, that there is a point along the path to enlightenment that speaks to the heart of what we may be experiencing and learning from the lo1 material. this is where i find myself and i will put the question to the group.

"has anyone experienced the feeling of loss of faith and borderline disgust with humanity? have you experienced the lack of patience, dismay and overall feeling of pointlessness with serving humanity?"

take your time. let that question sink in. . . .i'll wait. i believe this is what i call "the crisis of service" phase in walking an enlightened path. even jesus showed exasperation with humanity, "he answereth him and saith, o faithless generation, how long shall i be with you? how long shall i suffer you. . . ?" mk. 9:19. with any enlightenment, there comes perception and vision, into self and into mankind. how many of you have run up against the "density of man?" a pigheadedness, so thick, that it defies reason? the perception that you know they know better, but refuse to change or do the right thing? how many of you have experienced that within yourselves? i have, and do. it doesn't make it any better. it just pisses me off. can you see the dilemma here?

it is my feeling that many of us can lose our way at this point. i believe many have. the temptation at this point is to see oneself as superior because they can see this reality of mankind. to set ourselves apart as better than and to adopt a spirit of disdain for our fellows. it is difficult to serve from this perspective. it is the beginning of service to self. herein lies the trap.