[leareliovag]

i have finally adjusted to a somewhat vegan healthy lifestyle now, and i want to stay as pure as possible with not using any harmful products, recycling and composting etc....but with one problem/exception....

beer....lol.

i really wanted this out of my life forever, but last night i realized i can't be "pure in body" just yet.

i go to karaoke a lot, and have met a lot of people there, who allways need help and a listening ear etc.... the problem is, i look and act like such a goody goody compared to other people (in a totally non judgmental, happy-go-lucky way of course) that they never seem to feel comfortable if they are all drinking and i am not, so i will have a beer or two (or 4) whenever i go there, so others feel more comfortable.

i said on my birthday i wasn't going to have any more beer, but then last night i went to karaoke, and everyone there was sooooo sad, and sooooo stressed, and me and my friend were the complete opposite, happy and bubbly, and people would wave but not come over, so i ordered a beer and they all flocked over and one after another had these huge venting sessions.

i truly feel they all needed it, as they couldn't help each other when they were all in the same state. my friend felt the same....there was sooo much sorrow and heartache when we showed up, and we even stopped a few fights and helped each side make up a bit, and feel better etc.

so should i just go with the flow in this situation, for the sake of all those lonley heartbroken ones and put my self interests aside for now, since mabey beer isn't too unhealthy? i only drink coors-light, but it is the only pre-made food that i have in my life, and i want to have nothing left in my lifestyle that comes out of a package, bottle, box, or factory of any kind anymore.....am i jumping ahead in my thinking, or should i hold myself back a little bit more for a little while longer for the sake of other people in need?

i have poured many a beer down the bathroon sink and filled it with water when no-one was looking, but still you can't get away with drinking none of it all the time because people buy you a drink and want you to cheers and then drink etc.....am i being too strick? should i just go with the flow a bit longer?

any suggestions and advise, from any angle are very welcome.