[Nikkytas]

it seems that i have about the same life. i live in nebraska and i am 24 i got really sick and had to lay off of college for a while and am taking one statistics class wich really sucks. other than that i just work on balancing myself and working with dreams this can be a full time job in itself. i am lucky in that i have a great family and we are fairly well off. i plan on finishing college with a degree in art next fall. but, i cant shake the feeling that art is somewhat outdated and or irrelavant. it just doesnt hold the same charge as it used to for me. this causes problems in that it makes my parents worry because they think i am falling into a depression because i am losing interest in things i used to enjoy. they are becoming more open to these ideas though and it is getting easier for them to understand and they are into qigong and meditation. they still arent getting the larger picture though. at least i dont believe they are. i have really had to battle with drinking as it is all any one thinks about while in thier 20's around my area. the worst is bachelour parties i have been to two of them in the last 2 months. very hard to stay centered at one of those and for some reason large quantities of alchohal no longer make me drunk i stay lucid.