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greetings, i'm doug from wisconsin. i had the priviledge to attend the concsious life expo, in feb. that david was a key presenter at. i was guided if you will to be there. it changed my life, along with many other events of the past 5 yrs. i have never fit in anywhere. i felt at home if you will out there in l.a. most everyone thinks i'm crazy back here. my life has not been pretty. at 5 yrs. old i had a event occur which i'm still trying to figure out. i saw a object floating in the sky, sitting in the back of my parents car. i tried to tell them what i saw but i couldn't speak. that image haunts me to this day. i began useing drugs and alcohol at the age of 13. i attempted suicde at 21, and after 2wks in a mental institution, ended up in a.a. after 7yrs. in a.a. i studied for 5yrs. with a native american medicine man, trying to get to the bottom of my constant feelings of fear, rage, and distrust. during which i tried to integrate into normal life, by being married and fathering 3 children. i ended up divorced though not because of my wife, i couldn't figure out how to love. i remarried, trying again to integrate into a normal life, while continuing my spiritual work to try and heal my shattered self. of course i,m divorced again and now am alone. my father died unexpectedly, 12-21-05! ironic! that was the catylast that propelled me into an awakening! i began taking better care of myself. lost 45lbs, ate much better, and had an operation to fix a herniated embylical.(no 2nd chakra blockadge there! lol!) a year after my father died to the day! this past year has been full of events that have further activated my spiritual self. my heart opened 9-22-07. for the first time in my life i experienced love! this was the turning point in my life! after returning from the expo in feb, after attending david's post conference workshop, i noticed a very strange sensation. i now feel others energy. what a beautiful gift. i've always felt i've had a mission to complete here. i just had to learn to forgive myself for the realization to take place. i am a wanderer. i don't know from where i came. i do know i have a purpose being here. my intuition has blossomed, and now nothing gives me more joy in life then to encourage and love people for who and what they are. for me the realization really hit home while i read "a wanderers handbook" written by carla rueckert, availible for free from l/l research. the law of one series of 5 books i also highly recomend. my life is transforming daily. it is a priviledge and a true blessing for me to be of service, not bad for someone who has wanted to die most of their life. it's not always easy either. as i write this i have been experiencing night terrors for 3 nights now. i also have regularly occuring migranes as i continue to work through the blockages of the 6th chakra, and try to keep the lower ones open. it is a process. a beautiful, though sometimes painful one. please forgive yourselves! know that we are all beautiful, wonderful, important souls who need to be here in order to aid in the upcoming events. trust that we can all realize how are each unique, individual gifts can aid in the transformation process we have chosen to be a part of. this is truely the most fantastic time to incarnate here. may i send much love and encouragement to all fellow wanderers! we are needed. we also have legions of help to provide us support in our task. bless you all, and even though i'm alone in wisconsin, i'm at home with my fellow brothers and sisters of sorrow. thank you everyone. your's in service, doug