[mr.supervideogoodfd]

hey foosnik, how ya be buddy? for me and i can only speak for me, meditation has aided in keeping the self open. i realized, from the start, this is a gift. if i run around acting like a jerk with it, it will be taken away. or more appropiatly i will take it away from myself. sometimes it gets extremely overwhelming. the more sensitive i become, the more influx of intensity, or catylistic energy seems to be atracted. i am going thru a event right now. it seems to me lessons on trusting myself, forgiving myself, honoring my desire to be of service to others. for myself, i do not advocate the use of drugs or alcohol as a means of controling the energy. i think it is best to focus on balancing the self. sometimes we are offered glimpses into our capabilites before we are balanced enough to be able to function with them. not to worry. focus on the inner work. focus on the ra teachings, for that is a nice blueprint to do the inner work. sometimes this spirtual work is very uncomfortable. just because i cured the outer, physical, manifestation, of my 2nd chakra blockage, (herniated embylical) does not mean the spiritual blockadge has been removed. that work has only just begun. please be patient with yourself. it will come, in the meantime recognize how to take good care of yourself. i do think it's ok to take care of ourselves in order to be the best possibly tuned instrument to play the song! peace, and love to all, your's in service...... doug