[HilaryNidierer]

hello to all,

usually, i can find the creator in others eyes. but yesterday, was not so.

once a week i waitress for a little gas money and pocket change. i use this time to get out amongst strangers and always ask the 'one in charge' to bring me people that i can shine a light of love towards. i do get many amazing people, and have had great experiences of sparking a vibe in others of the divine. but, yesterday, there just arent words for the horrible vibes i found in this lady. she came in with 6 children. they all were close in age, i doubt they were all brothers and sisters. i felt a vibe that she had adopted these children or mabey she was a foster parent collecting money on them. she told the children they were not there to eat for them, they were there to eat for her, and she said this very mean. all the children hung their heads while she ordered one appetizer that obviously none of them liked. she told them to shut up several times while gritting her teeth at them and looking down at them with this horrid evil eye. one little boy had glasses, and had trouble sitting still. she asked him what he wanted, he replied he didnt know, she told him that he must be stupid because he wouldnt push his glasses up to read 'through' them and not over them. later a little girl in the group got up to get silver-ware off of another table. she was scolded with the evil look that made her cry. i just couldnt help myself any longer, i went over to the girl and told her it was ok and gave her a hug. i could feel the heat coming from the woman as i did this. i then knelt down beside the children and directed their thoughts onto the tick tack toe paper and began asking them who was the best at tick tack toe.

i couldnt put my finger on the reason, but i felt someone brought this lady and these children to me for a reason. i am thinking about finding out if she is a foster parent or something. i live in a small town and i think i could find out rather easily. i fear for the lives of these children and their spirits. she is damaging their souls. it has had me down ever since. should i of said something more? should i of told her she should respect these children? did i fail at something i was giving a chance at? i want to cry when i wonder where these children are and what they are doing right now.

i hate the feeling when i feel i want bad karma to bring someone what they have coming, but oh, those children! they dont need that woman! a small part of me says i need to get involved with foster children. mabey i need to take in a child. i feel i somehow failed these children. i am very disturbed with this.

peace to all,
lynette