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lynette, your story touched me. who knows what the right thing to do is? but the fact that you cared, that matters, the fact that you took action and did something, that matters, i am in awe of your compassion. i'm in a situation where i see children abused every day ( i work as an english teacher in a school in korea). the culture here apparently sees nothing wrong with physically punishing the children when they do anything "wrong". i see children hit and humiliated every day. it's hard. i'm no disciplinarian, and quite often my classes degenerate into riots, and the director gets upset with me and tells me i must send the offending kids to him. so i've been doing that as well. sending these poor little innocents to be caned just because i can't keep the class in order. the guilt! i repeat, who knows what the right thing to do is? i would love to be the perfect teacher who keeps the kids so happy that they never act out, but thats not reality. i had similar problems raising my kids, my past has come back to haunt me. do it right this time! how, what? but i love them, even if i can't express it very well. maybe that will count for something.