[carline]

i had been going through some depression at the time- the effects of bad experiences at school, as well as being over-sensitive and thinned skinned! first and foremost, thank you for posting your story, because i felt it.

i am not sure where to start. i guess, first you are not "over-sensitive" and "thinned skinned". you are a special part of the whole, and while it may seem extremely challenging, you are here to reflect truth.

and the guy that you met, in the beginning of your story, i think your thoughts on that were exactly right. he is walking the line of some cult type thing. i am not here to judge anyone and he is allowed to be whatever he wants.

basically, he told me he is the reincarnation of jesus!
he told me he had two or three soul mates in this life, and i was one of them.
he said that the catholic and christian churches were the only true religions....i think he must have been indoctrinated.
he also had taken copious amounts of acid in the past- which he claimed to have stopped. but to say that the "catholic and christian churches are the only true religions", no way. to deny all other faiths, which are just as wonderful? no. we all have just as much right to our faiths.

the other thing he deluded himself about was the idea that he was a lot more famous/ well known than he actually is.

i promised to keep all these things a secret- but in the end, i needed to talk about it with someone, who helped me see sense in it all. i hated to have broken my word to anyone, but it all felt sort of out of control.

anyway, it was just an incredibly intense and confusing thing to go through.

i later wondered, when i saw the first project camelot interview with david....david said something about wanderers losing their way and developing these "messiah complexes".
i wondered whether this had been the case with him. yes, i totally agree with you here. it sounds as if he is moving into a cult-like direction.

i promised to keep all these things a secret- but in the end, i needed to talk about it with someone, who helped me see sense in it all. i hated to have broken my word to anyone, but it all felt sort of out of control. lord have mercy do i know about this. all of this 2012 thing is about bringing things to the light. no more guilt. no more pain and saddness for being ourselves.


the night before i had been crying out angrily in my prayers....for feeling so alone...for never really knowing if anyone could hear me or not.

the message i received left no doubt in my mind it was genuine- and spoke specifically about what had happened the previous night!
it was so reassuring.

we are never, never alone.

there are those in the spirit world who care about us and watch over us, even though we can't see them. they don't like to see us suffer either.

the world is in a lot of healing.
we can heal ourselves, each other and in turn help to heal the world.

let us keep searching.
let us continue to reach for the stars, for truth and for wisdom.
no matter how painful or confusing life gets.
let's be strong- let's carry on. amen.

i couldn't say it better myself.