[HilaryNidierer]

i used to long so much to know my creator-god/goddess. the more i have found my inner self, my spirit self, the more i dont long for this. i cant shake the feeling that my purpose is just now starting. mabey i have already been through a higher cycle of 'density' and chose to come backwards to help others and when i do leave here i will continue on in the density that i left from. the whole different dinsities as literal things is hard to wrap my mind around. i just feel that if and when i do return to my creator, i will not remain with thee long for i will choose once again to seperate and go be another form of being for thee to keep experienceing.

i dont find true bliss to be very exciting. i do find it exciting to know god and return, but im getting to know god more and more everyday. as well as i feel mabey god is awaking from a long slumber, like stelth mode or something. and now thee is awakinging, coming to know thee self, through us, and in return, we get to know god, as god awakes. i feel i am not on the edge of returning. i feel that my incarnation has much more work to be done that is just now really starting.

when i meditate on this, and i ponder on the idea that i have work to do after 2012, i receive a smile of satisfaction from my higher self. like i am on the right track and i need to just make the best of it all and stay grounded so i can be guided in the right path of work.

to each their own, im not sure if we all have the same purpose. mabey some have accomplished what their soul needed to do and mabey some have come back to simply begin again somewhere. i would sure like to know why i feel my work is just starting and like im being prepared to help others past 2012. again though, my soul says, 'let it be, you will know all in good time, you are doing just fine'.

peace to all,
lynette