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dearest, dearest lynette,

our danielle (7) has been showing those signs for years. i went to get her diagnosed years ago, but the doc was afraid to diagnose, cuz i'm pretty sure he diagnoses so many children already with these disorders. he gave me a little advice, and said she would outgrow it. well..... there are so many days when i can only smile, when i imagine what it would've been like if we had sent her to school! she would be great friends with the princible, and in constant need of catching up with her class curriculum. i (jame was all for it too, but wanted me to be sure knowing i would be doing it all) chose homeschooling, cuz i knew it would be too much of a negative experience for her, and my heart wouldn't have been able to watch it. yea, some days are hard, but you learn to smile and make it positive! she would rather create and draw instead of learning math, etc. and therefore grumbles alot! i am glad for homeschooling, cuz i am able to teach her/them more things of what has been suppressed from our knowing for so many years! i can go outside with them at "recess" and i can tell them about the exciting truth about talking to trees, and blessing them! focus is something very hard for her too. i'm trying to get her to do yoga with me! she says it's too boring. i will have to listen to "our guidance/higher self" (still learning) on how to help her with that! cuz in my heart of hearts, i know we've been guided through it all!!
brandon (6) was diagnosed with autism pdd over four years ago. i hadn't even heard of autism until i was reading an article on it in readers digest and told jame that it sounded like brandon's behaviour. (alot of crying and no matter how hard i tried; couldn't figure out what was wrong.) sure enough.... he has come along way though! you can have a pretty good conversation with him. you do still have to give him a lot of words, but he's gettin' there! i would like to tell you from experience, that "my little man" does infact show much emotion, and is very happy! when he's excited or happy, he jumps and flaps his hands, and he does that alot! (sometimes he gets weird looks, but i'll kindly tell them why. i figure i didn't know years ago, so they might not know. sometimes, i wish i was more like him, in showing emotions; especially the good ones!) seriously, the only negative emotion that he shows is frustration and anger, but then it's due to his two "teasing sisters". "girls." other then that, he has the greatest laugh that makes you laugh, and you hear it most of the time! when he gets stressed out, then he starts laughing, and if you ask, he'll tell you his "inside joke"! he loves to learn, read, draw, and crafts, puzzles etc. so he's always pretty quiet and busy. there are no strangers in his world! he shares a smile and greeting with everyone he meets! he's the little guy who puts his head back and closes his eyes when it starts raining! he's taught me alot! as far as sensory dysfunction, it's gotten so much better over the years. we are talking about a very picky eater though, which makes it hard. i'm glad he likes apples! cuz "an apple a day, keeps the doc. away"!
as far as meds go lynette. i wouldn't be hard on yourself. we're all on a journey, and we're all trying to figure it out, and make our own decisions on the way by trusting in our infinite creator, who dwells within! we haven't seen our doc. in over two years. we like to do our own research, into things. we did see a dnm a couple times to do the detox with him, which helped immensely! i've found [email for site] very useful, informational, and practical and has great advice on add as well!
he did get into the gov program ibi, for two years but i pulled him out, due to intuition. they were surprised, but i had no doubts, and knew it was the right thing to do for many reasons!
our youngest, meghan (4) "little m" wasn't affected, probably b/c she only had the first three vaccines, and was never on any other meds. she definitely has a mind of her own! perhaps b/c it hasn't been so affected. i wish i truly knew.
if you wanted to ever talk, i'd be more then excited! perhaps i shall try and contact you! we could perhaps share what's worked and what hasn't! i'd like to ask if you've ever heard of "yellow" when it comes to teaching add/adhd.
i know it's a hard journey, and the only thing that's gotten us through are holding on to the good moments, the great moments, and the joyful moments, and turning the negative moments into positive moments!
i leave you with a blessing of what you stand in need of!
bless you with much love, joy, guidance, and happiness!
bon