[hrthwhr]

i sit here and find myself getting aggraveted at alot of things ... and all i want to do is to start breaking all of my stuff i have, even though i dont really have much. i find myself not wanting a car ... not wanting to work for an idea (money) ... not enjoying myself around others who, i am told, enjoy my company ... i feel sooo tired. i cant quite my mind. none of the people that are directly around me can really help me spiritually. most of them are walking with blinders on (as i once was). but, i also feel myself getting aggravated at myself. i want to run, but there is no hiding. maybe i need to spend time in a depravation chamber or something ... i dont know. can someone at least point me in the right direction so i can free myself from these feelings?