[Anteneprorid]

don't feel you are alone. i have recently gone through most of the same thoughts and emotions as you have mentioned as many here can attest to. much of the frustration came about because of my intense desire to search out the absolute truth of all things. that has been a central theme throughout my sojourn here this lifetime.

let me share some of the things i have learned (i am far from over it). truth can be very illusive and is highly relative. just because something is true, does not mean it is relative to your life experience. your experience will invariably be what you make it.

if you spend any time watching tv stop. turn it off, if necessary throw it out. don't listen to the radio either. if you wish to enjoy music then select your own music via cd or tape, not broadcast. either of these venues constantly bombard you with negativity. even if you don't think you pay attention it still takes it's toll. there is nothing on there you need to know. take a break from the internet too. although it is much more under your control, it still will result in information overload. reality will continue to unfold according to the divine plan even if you don't know about it.

if you are able, seek some solitude in a silent natural setting. you need time to commune with the universe and your higher self away from man made distractions.

remember that all these feelings are arising for you to purify and deal with them in a positive way. it is a part of the intense cleansing that is happening to us all at this time. know that things are going to get worse before they get better. it is part of the process required to awaken the sleeping masses. don't give in to the fear for that is where the anger comes from. it's all just a hologram designed to promote spiritual growth.

peace be with you.