[lorrieholdridge]

thank you for the good advice, iamsaidi.

i find that one of my problems is trying to figure out whether there truly is any purpose in this strange, cruel world in which we live.

i find myself stuck in a state of inertia, without any motivation to do anything because i'm not sure whether there is any point or not.

i yearn to go home, to return to my creator, to be immersed in safe, blissful love and light.

i learned some time ago that we cannot change people unless they want to change.

now i'm learning more about the "waves".

and it would seem that life does have meaning.

i want to find out more.

i need to stop running away, hiding myself away from everything in life.

if the truth will set us free, then maybe i can stop repeating these patterns for once and for all.