[Kotyara]

great topic! why here, why now, why this family, what challenges? these are all issues i've reflected on since learning the law of one and accepting the process of reincarnation.

for me, there is such relief in knowing the answer to these questions is simply that there was much karma to be satisfied and it is now pretty much taken care of.

what challenges? my family roots were truly dysfunctional. there was the drunken mother, the absent father, the lecherous stepfather, and the distant sister. i played the role of helper and fixer. in the end, each one of them rejected and abandoned me. and that was only the beginning... next came marriage, and that's another story in itself.

i think of the lessons each of these catalysts allowed me to learn and have come to appreciate the opportunities i have been given to learn to have inner strength, to deal with abandonment, and ultimately to forgive and to love unconditionally.

i am sure that there was lots of karma that i had to work out in this lifetime in order to be "harvestable" this time around. my family group certainly gave me every opportunity to get it accomplished, and for that i must be thankful.

in the countdown to 2012, it seems my purpose is to share love and light. being a type a personality, i sometimes wish i could do more healing and loving than i seem to be doing on a daily basis. but, i reflect on david's words in 'the science of peace' and remind myself that it really isn't necessary to drop everything and make major life changes to do this 'work'...
it's more about being the love and the light wherever we are and whatever we may be doing.

thanks again for presenting this topic, butterfriends. it is good to reflect on these things and to reaffirm them.

sharing love and light,
nancy