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as a child i use to get a lot of recurring nightmares.

i was very young, and i don't remember a lot that clearly, but i can remember feeling incredibly scared, i can remember getting a horrible feeling of a "presence" in my room.

when this happened, i used to pray.

it was during one of these prayers when i had this powerful experience which words cannot truly describe.
i feel that this experience had a huge impact on me as a person.

i felt what i can only describe as pure love/ light surrounding me, enveloping me and pouring into my entire being.
in this moment, i felt nothing but love.
i wanted to stay in that moment forever.
i felt sad when it went away, but it gave me something that will always stay a part of me.

after having this experience, the nightmares went, and i have never really been bothered by any of that kind of thing since.
i do feel as if i'm being protected.

it is not a feeling i was able to bring on myself, or replicate since it happened, except for on a couple of occasions, but the first time was the most powerful. i felt as if it came from outside of me.

i did for a short time have a kind of telepathic communication with "god", when i was very young- a kind of language of the heart.....beyond words.

however, i am sad to say that the more i learned to think and question things and learn about religion and such......the more this gift i had faded away until i lost it completely.

i would love to regain this ability some day.

but it's so hard because it means i need to work on deprogramming so much about the way my mind words which has been conditioned upon it by society, etc.

quite often, i'll feel so lost in this world, and periodically suffer from depression.

but, deep down, what i truly hunger after is that sense of complete love and oneness i felt when i had that experience.

and i feel lost in this world when words cannot explain certain things i'd love to help others to see.

but.....
words cannot explain.


i'm sorry that this is a long rambling post; i just wanted to share the experience i had with you.

maybe all we need to do is "ask" for protection- and we will receive it.

i hope this helps in some way.

peace.