[Pharmaciest]

welcome fellow wanderer!

i must confess, that all i have to offer you is my own confusion, but here is what has worked best for me.

1) make yourself completely transparent to the energy, allowing it to pass right thru you with absolutely no effect. this has been key for me. trying to block the negative energy just drains my own energy, and trying to reflect it back to them can actually empower it. kind of like the old saying 'you fight it; you feed it!"

2) the second most helpful thing for me is to surround myself with white light, almost like being inside an 'egg' or a tube of light. i find this both protective and energizing. the more you do it the better it works.

3) if this attack has been going on for a long time like you say, it's imperative that you sever the power connection this being has with you. clear intent is your most powerful tool here, altho adding a physical act can be extremely helpful. (that's why spells and rituals are effective.) something like holding a scissors in front of your power chakra, using a cutting motion, and symbolically severing the connection.

4) faith is very helpful too. simply trusting that no catalyst would be experienced unless it had a potentially positive and lasting beneficial effect, will make any situation infinitely more bearable.