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slooie--

i think i hear what you are saying.

you are not sure how to plan your future, right?

when i was a child we had drills at school, hiding under our desks because the russians were always about to attack us with nuclear weapons. we always thought we were about to end.

when i was a teenager i went to church with my mother--there we got to watch movies about how suddenly some people would disappear while driving in their cars, and their cars would crash into highway bridges--the jest of it was--the good poeple would be taken in rapture , the bad people would be left behind. also known as "the left behind series". they made a lot of money basically terrorizing people with fear.

i really thought that my days would be short on earth before the end came.

but, i am 48 years old. i had a child at 44 years old. i have had a life and i plan to continue having a life. 2012 will come and go and i will have a life. my life may be different than it is now, but it will still be a life worth living.

my suggestion to you is not to blow all of your money but rather to invest it in yourself. learn something, make a living. you will continue to grow in your work, you will continue to have outbreaks of fascinating revelation. work, be fruitful in your job, make a difference in the world even if it's only with your smile. make plans to continue your life into old age, but be ready to meet your maker all of the time. enjoy your life. do what you feel drawn to do--maybe that's travel, maybe that's working as a dishwasher.

have a joyful, honest and good life because there is a reason you came here and it would be a shame to miss it because you thought life would basically be over before it begins.