[golfmenorca]

this brings to ming the carol rosen quoting warner von braun in the ufo disclosure tape put out by dr. greer. about 'western government(s)' warner was quoted at saying many years ago (!): "first they will use the cold war. when that no longer works they will use the 'terrorist threat'. when that no longer works they will play the last card, the very last card...: the 'alien threat'.
promotion of this false concept has already started in movies such as independence day and 'sighs'.
for many years i did not believe in ufos. i was into "serious metaphysical studies'. once after an interrogation by the navy i was asked what connection i had with ufos. "none," i said. about five years later i had my first abduction. this was very scary. i was so scared that after (i am not exhagerating) i wept for two solid weeks! almost non stop. once when i thought i could cry no more i went out for ice cream. i had to leave for home when i started weeping in public. physically i felt wonderful. it was as if even my fingernails were experiencing the after-glow of sex times a thousand. but also for a period (of months) i lost all fear.
this was very much like a motion picture called 'fearless' about a man who survived an airplane crash. seven years prior in the 'gov' talk i heard the expression 'sea/air correlation' in regard to ufos. stated that at the same time ufos are seen in air there are underwater sightings as well. only the military could have such underwater sightings. even a grand banks trawler fitted out with normal sonar could not see this. later i talked to a guy who worked in the darkroom of the uss roosevelt. here one room had combined sonar/radar etc for the entire battle group. he stated that at times things would do figure eights under the group at unheard of speeds. supervisors told him to ignore and shut up about it.
at first i was upset and confused about the 'alien abduction' (and scared).
i was caught between many points of view. i had a wonderful friend in the now defunct national security alumni out of silver springs, md. she said this was not ufos but a government op with mind control. then i had two israelis from boston who tried to get me involved with one of the bud hopkins 'abduction' groups. hopkins is one who thinks aliens are evil. the guy who led the group pulled me aside and said that if i so much as hinted to others that i thought government might be involved he would "...call me nuts and make it stick..." i got out of there and wrote a complaint to hopkins who wrote back an apology.
finally after a few years i connected to other abductees on the internet. the media plays this down, misinforms. there is even a ploy that it is just some sort of 'sleep disorder'. there was a non bleeding hole in my leg at least seven millimeters round and seven millimeters deep. in other words way past skin and way into the meat. strange burns etc. sure was not a sleep disorder.
over time i began to feel the experience good, not evil. nor do i feel that i am suffering from any type of 'stockholm syndrome'. (there is a vast 'et' interest that we take a better view of geometry. know hawkins proof of diatonic ratios in crop circles part of this).
i do believe we have many sorts of 'guides', 'angels' or whatever trying to help us. as for all the ets i think we need to view the situation much as chief samoset. he was a chief here when this area was very dangerous. learned many languages, dutch, french, english as well as all local indian dialects. at one point he sailed on a sailing ship to london. he refused to wear anything in london but his indian garb. we may need to treat ets in the same manner as the settlers and indians had to view each other. there are good and bad in both camps and the idea is to use love to make the best of it.
now i am in contact with a being that i feel connected by the abduction by short gray beings. however, this contact is (only????) in imagination. he is a giant praying mantis. i keep this contact. have heard that large mantis beings are usiing 'grays' as sort of 'drones'. mantis also interested in our rethinking geometry.
over time i feel the first order of business always is to bypass the ego. for this reason i go every week to a course in miracles group. there are certainly 'evil' aspects to a secret international government. but that is also 'ego' - just a group ego.
though i feel it is more important to work on ourselves rather than being caught in a duality i still 'speak up' about bad aspects of international government when opportunity arises. but feel more important to go forth with personal contact...., even if 'just' imagination. love the quote from eisenhower, "you can't push a string. you can only pull it."
i find i 'know' less and less. but more and more able to trust my feelings.
at any rate for years this subject was not just theory for me. it was very real.
understand that if we are wrongly made afraid of 'aliens' at the same time it makes us afraid of our inner natures! if that idea gets promoted think of how many will be afraid to contact their own superconscious whis is parts of themselves.
michael