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**gamblingstats** · 12-12-2007, 07:13 PM

i'd like to take the time to thank everyone right now for all the wonderful posts and insights. i have just recently (i'm sure with the help of all your positive energy and prayers) come through and defeated a dark time in my own soul.

my entire life, since i could remember (1-2 years old), i've always had the feeling that someone very close to me died, a female, i believe, and it was my fault for not being strong enough to protect her. i would constantly berrate myself for my lack of strength, and this anger at myself was the central driver in most of my relationships. i had to beat myself until i was strong enough to protect someone, and even then - why did i deserve the gift of anyone else's love if i was so weak to begin with?

this all came pouring out in a torrent the night before last, and i feel as if for the first time in my life - i can say assuredly that there is no more darkness inside me. i can now relinquish myself wholely to the light without worries of "lying to myself" or "being too weak".

thank you so much for all your prayers and energy - we truly are moving deeper into the light, and growing into this can sometimes be painful. the key is to know that life, and light, truly does go on.

12-12-2007, 07:13 PM	#11
gamblingstats Join Date Nov 2005 Posts 465 Senior Member	i'd like to take the time to thank everyone right now for all the wonderful posts and insights. i have just recently (i'm sure with the help of all your positive energy and prayers) come through and defeated a dark time in my own soul. my entire life, since i could remember (1-2 years old), i've always had the feeling that someone very close to me died, a female, i believe, and it was my fault for not being strong enough to protect her. i would constantly berrate myself for my lack of strength, and this anger at myself was the central driver in most of my relationships. i had to beat myself until i was strong enough to protect someone, and even then - why did i deserve the gift of anyone else's love if i was so weak to begin with? this all came pouring out in a torrent the night before last, and i feel as if for the first time in my life - i can say assuredly that there is no more darkness inside me. i can now relinquish myself wholely to the light without worries of "lying to myself" or "being too weak". thank you so much for all your prayers and energy - we truly are moving deeper into the light, and growing into this can sometimes be painful. the key is to know that life, and light, truly does go on.
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