[CathBraunn]

i really resonate with both of your posts. elendal, it’s uncanny how i’ve had experiences with very similar content. here they are in brief, without going into detail: (they happened in 1999 and 2000 while i was in contact with a being from some other dimension).

the “bus”: obe: i was taken by a being i called my ‘guide’ to a city, it was at night and we had to get on this bus which took us to visit certain deceased relatives and friends that were now living in this city. i knew we were somewhere in the astral.

the “thing” on your back: during a meditation: by the same guide in a different place, i was made aware of something on my back, i too looked over my left shoulder when a person in a long white robe reached out and grabbed the thing from my back a threw it into a lake of fire. i was told the thing on my back (which i could now see looked like a snake) was “the big lie of the world.”

“repeating patterns”: after each meditation (when i used to meditate) upon opening my eyes, i would see hexagons surrounding me as if i was smack in the middle of a bee-hive structure. this structure was always a light yellow color and would gradually begin to fade away within a few minutes.

“masters”: another meditation with the same guide into another astral plane: like the way most near death experiences are described, i could feel myself leaving my body. i was traveling through a long spiraling tunnel that was becoming lighter and lighter until i could see a brilliant light at the end. as i got closer i could see what looked like jesus and tons of other people in white robes looking up at me radiating a love that was indescribable. i thought i was going home and felt blissful. suddenly a huge flat, circular rock came down in front of the opening and dropped like a guillotine just before i could get through. then i could feel myself being pulled backwards through the tunnel again and snapped into my body – i was extremely disappointed to be back in my body. i asked my guide why he stopped me from going on?

he said, “it’s a trap.”

my mind instantly filled with a knowing; that what many people think of as heaven is really just a place trapped in the astral – including guys like jesus and other masters.

these are just a few of my experiences that i was guided through during those years. i kept a journal and wrote them all down in detail.
another interesting thing spoken by this being was, “there is no freedom, there is only order.”

concerning sto/sts, and the word ‘service’. from what i’ve learned, feelings are the key because serving others just to be in service to gain brownie points or for any other reason won’t work. when a person begins to feel love and compassion, it must be a genuine feeling and if so, a conscious effort to serve others isn’t even there. there is no effort or conviction involved.

example: when i quit slaughtering animals (as mentioned in my post “oneness”) it wasn’t out of conviction… it was out of pure love because i was able to feel my connection to them.

however, to become a vegetarian was an effort to be of sto (in this case, to animals), and was derived from conviction. it didn’t work! maybe it never will, so all i can do is eat only as much meat as my body really needs and to be grateful to the animal that had to die for my health.

when i feel a true loving connection, that in itself is the higher frequency which opens an awareness and extends itself to other areas of my life, perhaps in small ways to begin with, but it grows.

thank you for your posts. i’ve found them both enlightening and informative, a sort of re-awakening for me. :d

zephyr