[dosyrotsbop]

i have never stopped praying for her. i do, in fact, still love her with all of my heart, but with my son involved i've had to think with my head rather than my heart. i want nothing bad for her, but if it's between her or my son, there's no choice at all. she grew up in a poor situation, with her sisters being raped by stepfather, etc... but i really don't understand how any situation can cause the conscience to evaporate. i didn't grow up in a situation as bad as hers, but mine wasn't a bowl of peaches either. however, those hard times have only reinforced my conscience and compassion, as i don't want anyone to have to deal with the pain i've had to go through. i will always forgive her for her inhumane attitude towards me, but that isn't going to put her off the hook with the spiritual world. what, is she going to come back in her next life as... i don't know, whatever the karmic consequences may be? i don't want that for her, trust me. i really don't think she understands the concept of ethics. i mean, she pays her tithes with stolen money... you know? as i said, as much as i love her, the love i have for my son makes that for her seem hardly significant. i want the best for everyone, but especially him.