[twiffatticy]

i have been experiencing a sort of spiritual crisis. this is something i have lived with for many years, ever since i first awoke to the perverted extremities of suffering that i wish never existed as a part of our reality. i think i was about 11 or 12 when the nature of this part of reality first hit me, forever traumatizing my heart.

sometimes i wonder if it's really worth it......life.

however, i just spent the last hour or so in therapeutic writing.

i have come to the conclusion, that if it really is possible to make a lasting, healing difference in the world, then life really is worth it.

i will just need to look for evidence of this in the world so that it may become clear.

hey, does anyone think that the ideas in the film "pay it forward" could become reality?! is it just a dream?!
wow, imagine.........

and i have also been pondering what david wilcock said about service to others being important at this present moment in time, although as this is accomplished the principles of give and take.....will merge together, where they belong, to become one.
for if there was no desire to take, what need would there be top give? etc, etc.

if infinite love/ god is pure joy, then anything which gives us joy (which doesn't inflict suffering on others) can be experienced as a part of it.