[Rexaviennatutr]

what a trip! i had forgotten. i actually jumped off a flight of stairs in that old house at 4 or 5. i knew i could fly-with-the-right-attitude. i came tumbling down and luckily i rolled when i hit the first stair and landed at the bottom unhurt.

yeah, i hear ya about the limitations. the illuminatti thing felt eerie and scared me actually. and the time that the girl made the pass at me i was in another relationship in which we shared complete honesty, so i gelled on it. i have slid on a lot of opportunities that just didn't feel right. i have that incredible luck and sometimes things just land in my lap. i always wanted to be an artist, but in my family only the girls were good enough for that! ha. yeah i could be anything i wanted as long as it was a doctor, lawyer, indian chief or successful business man. i have been a workaholic for long enough. i decided just this year to give myself what i always wanted. after all my son is grown and i am single again. so i am learning a guitar and a keyboard. i have always written songs and poems, but i hope to learn to get the music out that i hear with the lyrics.

oh, and i've also had what seemed to be a grim reaper thing. this thing snuck up behind me and i heard these claws on the floor and then a foul odor filled the room. i didn't see it, but the presence was huge. i snapped up off of the couch and it was gone. also, had the witch sit on my chest where i couldn't breathe. sleep apnea.

well you have had some very intense moments. i appreciate your story and feedback.

good luck with the catching up from helping others, but remember that bread thrown on the water of life has a way of comin back at ya!

dave