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**ufUUZCnc** · 07-15-2007, 02:37 PM

a lighthouse doesn't rush out into the sea to rescue what appears to it to be a ship in dire straits. instead, it stands upon its foundation of rock, shining its own light. and lets the ship's captain determine and choose whether or not (and how) he wants or needs to save himself/herself.

this came to me this morning after an "a-ha" hit me the last couple of days. recently i made a connection between mental/emotional breakdowns and "a dark night of the soul" experience. they appear to me to be one and the same--one's most current reality illusion falls apart (disillusionment), and because we're used to believing that as a truth (that's the way life is...), it's as though the ground we've been so trustingly standing upon is ripped out from beneath our feet. and for a while we flounder and struggle and cry, paralyzed and terrified of mis-stepping--wanting to die and yet terrified of death. i've personally been through several of these dark nights of the soul throughout my life.

i have peers who were hospitalized and labelled with all kinds of "dis-eases," some of them put on medications for life. and because of my own empathy and identification with the rescuer archetype, and because they appeared to me to be floundering ships, i had been taking it upon myself to rescue them--by being their advocate general. grin.

then one of my "rescuees" honored me with running me through the paces of her act--and that's when i saw it with clarity. it was all an act for my benefit and anyone else whose life she touched with it. she's no crazier than me or anyone else. it's just her game and she's evidentally been enjoying the attention she gets through her 13 rides in the "paddy wagon," which she proclaims were no fun--but which got her some attention (which, ultimately, is what it was all about).

she is one in many rescuees to honor me this way throughout my life. can't help but laugh at myself. i've awakened a great deal thanks to all the efforts on their part--and my own. "pitying" another or oneself can be quite a journey.

have a great day, everyone!
penny

07-15-2007, 02:37 PM	#9
ufUUZCnc Join Date Oct 2005 Posts 528 Senior Member	Letting Go of the Rescuer in Me a lighthouse doesn't rush out into the sea to rescue what appears to it to be a ship in dire straits. instead, it stands upon its foundation of rock, shining its own light. and lets the ship's captain determine and choose whether or not (and how) he wants or needs to save himself/herself. this came to me this morning after an "a-ha" hit me the last couple of days. recently i made a connection between mental/emotional breakdowns and "a dark night of the soul" experience. they appear to me to be one and the same--one's most current reality illusion falls apart (disillusionment), and because we're used to believing that as a truth (that's the way life is...), it's as though the ground we've been so trustingly standing upon is ripped out from beneath our feet. and for a while we flounder and struggle and cry, paralyzed and terrified of mis-stepping--wanting to die and yet terrified of death. i've personally been through several of these dark nights of the soul throughout my life. i have peers who were hospitalized and labelled with all kinds of "dis-eases," some of them put on medications for life. and because of my own empathy and identification with the rescuer archetype, and because they appeared to me to be floundering ships, i had been taking it upon myself to rescue them--by being their advocate general. grin. then one of my "rescuees" honored me with running me through the paces of her act--and that's when i saw it with clarity. it was all an act for my benefit and anyone else whose life she touched with it. she's no crazier than me or anyone else. it's just her game and she's evidentally been enjoying the attention she gets through her 13 rides in the "paddy wagon," which she proclaims were no fun--but which got her some attention (which, ultimately, is what it was all about). she is one in many rescuees to honor me this way throughout my life. can't help but laugh at myself. i've awakened a great deal thanks to all the efforts on their part--and my own. "pitying" another or oneself can be quite a journey. have a great day, everyone! penny
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