[Wrencytet]

i am kenneth and i suffer from the family disease of alcoholism. i have battled a schizo-disorder for 27 years. there is help.mental and emotional illness is masked with alcoholism (self medication) in my family history. i am a dry alcoholic. i take my medication effexor for depression and seroquel for mood dosorders. because i am sensitive to medication i take a low dosage of both. i have taken imipranine, prozac, serazone , the anit-smoking medication. effexor gave me a weight gain . i joined weight watchers and that chlalenge is met. it also lowered my sexual drive to chemical castration with an other medication for enlarged prostrate "dutasteride." psycho therapy plus mediciation and active participation in al-anon and aa has helped me change my attitude about my life and manage myself. i am powerless over my illness , alcoholism, depression, murderous rage,personality disorders. there is no cure. i surrender them to my higher power and surrender absolutely the out comes to him. his faithful has been beyond words to describe, the safety,the tenderness and aboslute love that i am receiving every day . my resentment and choices to hold on to it and the past block the inifinte intelligence , infinte love and infinite wisdom from achieving the fulness of manageablity that is possible. there is hope, strength and joy it is very near my heart and i must choose it. my choosing it is cognitive therapy in application. it is a long road to recovery but we will share your load . help is closer than argentina! i apply , be love and be stop. silent, think, open ( observe)and pray and then play with all your heart and joy for now.. my love, hope strength anbd courage to you as you are led.
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