[usacomm]

i too, and probably us all, have doubted ourselves and felt some low self-esteem. i'd say only the unfortunate go throught life never questioning. even mother theresa questioned god and herself. through questioning comes knowledge and understanding.

when i began to hate myself i began to question and search for solutions. i found that at our source point of light we are all the same and we have chosen our lives.

another point: i bet your life is more interesting then you think it is. you account for only a very small part of the world's population that have this "mystical" knowledge of the way the universe works, which makes you a very special person.

another point: since you are thinking this your life is probably about to change to suit your new ambitions.

i am right there with you man. i know how you feel and am just sharing my thought processes on my own struggle. take care.