[MackBranon]

goodness, this became an 'encourage ewhaz' thread, well its all very much appreciated. hopefully people will read these words and feel them resonate with themselves and offer them encouragement to prod on in the face of uncertainty.

i won't say that i haven't had any 'mystical' experiences, but most of them seem so esoteric and tongue in cheek that they seem hardly worth mentioning. one was, well back in the day when i experimented with mind altering plants and fungi, i felt this overwhelming sense of absolute love. not just squishy i love you sort, but agape, or godly love. it gave me a sense of peace and surety that no matter what everything was fine, just as it was and would continue to be fine. it was a very joy filled experience that i still remember vividly.

the other was a bit more recently. i was mediating on a very heavy subject, one that was life altering to say the least. the issue had to deal with deciding between two equally pressing paths. there were heavy moral and social implications with each path and it weighed on me very heavily for a while. one day i meditated, and out of no where i get this sense of love and forgiveness that it brought tears to my eyes.

it was as if i had already been forgiven, accepted and loved though i hadn't had a chance to make any decision yet or even asked for forgiveness. at the time this went against everything i knew and understood about forgiveness, which had to be asked for to receive. now i understand that better, that there is no real right or wrong, only actions and consequences. so.. while i may not have fantastic (seemingly) stories to tell like people like david and other channelers, healers, teachers etc, i do have my own story.