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good god thanx for the amazing words people! it means alot..

and yeah, i understand that there are differences on the view from person to person, so my reality isnt somebody elses..

nice to know im not the only person with thoughts like this, and more people "waking up" so to speak..

and, fiz, ive been like this for as long as i can remember. i survided a critical surgery after birth, doctors said i should have been dead, but i survived for some reason.. when i was a kid i liked to pick flowers from the forrest, and quit doing it because my friends laughed and pointed at me
ive done all these things and ive given up on some of them, and i should'nt have.. ive had two nervous breakdowns sofar because of overmotivation, and didnt want to have a third so i started to meditate and my boss wounders how the hell i can keep up with everyone else at work, knowing im the one with least experience in the area

but today, i learn more and more to actually focus on the stuff i want in my life, instead of thinking and crying over the things i havent got, or the things i dislike in my life, its like a course, you get more and more knowlage of your self if you want to.

ewhaz, i understand you fully for me its hard because i have to rebuld my self and let go of the past, and as you said, new view on right and wrong, and thats a good thing i think, because you let your self bee free, you release yourself from all traditions, and look at the world with new eyes.

because, christianity is more and more about traditions, and thats bad, because traditions can be manipulated and it seperates everyone in many levels..
when i used to go to church, it was as if everyone was competing about who was wearing what, and who gave the most money in church.. thats wrong..what happened to faith??? you know..
because if god would say something to us there he would probablly say "youve got me all wrong!!!"

but, thanx for all the kind words, it helps me alot in my "path to the unknown"

peace