[Avaindimik]

thank you to all of you. your thoughts of encouragement have been helping me through what is the toughest experience i have lived through as yet.

if i may i would like to share at least, in brief, the tail end of what has occurred to prompt this posting.

there was a man murdered beside my residence the morning i was to leave for a visit with an ailing grandmom. my visit was draining as i learned of the turmoil that all most my entire family is enduring.

back at home i had to get my child to a visitation with her father through police barriers that were in place due to a bomber, only to be met with threats of violence after which my child was driven away. the police have been helping but it is a convoluted situation and will take a while to sort out.

i am fairly certain that she will be returned very soon, but not being able to even speak with her and the slight uncertainty that is in the wings has been as i said above the hardest experience i've dealth with.
this is where the energy that you are sending out has helped me-in the sit and wait time.

i couldn't sleep and so watched david's videos last night and was hit with profunditity at the end when i heard him say that with an open heart one must have/use wisdom,a simple statement yet it home for me. for a long time i was confused as to why people continued to do hurtful things to me even though i was doing work in and out of meditation to forgive them.

mr. wilcock provided the simplistic yet most in depth answer that i already knew, but mabe wasn't really ready to fully comprehend-boundaries + open heart=let you live let me live.

i apologize if i am unclear in any way i may be a little too tired to be writing, but i wanted to respond while i was able.

again your loving thoughts on top of the vids has aided me tremendously, thank you.