[Oberjej]

i'm finding myself much more driven in my spirituality since watching mr.wilcocks interview that came out recently ... my dad has been informing me of the great info on this sight and others for awhile ... but there was something about that interview that struck me ... and lit a match ...

dw: i'm glad it's had that effect on you. if i had known how much more effective a video presentation would be, i might have done one sooner -- but it was definitely a function of my becoming increasingly comfortable with what i'm doing here on the planet.

...though within the past few years i was driven to simply living the ideals and let my meditations and practices slip because of several instances of powerful yet uncomfortable moments...

i found in my meditations and even still hard to visualize light ... though i would be filled by light i could not properly visualize the light from above filling me connecting me to earth and then connecting me to above ...

dw: there's no reason why you have to visualize light or anything else, despite what you may have read. when ra was asked in the law of one series if there was any "right way" to meditate, the answer was "no."

harold sherman in his esp book i read when i was 7 said that you had to visualize a movie screen to be psychic, and then watch and see what images would appear on the screen.

part of why i never thought i'd be any good at esp is because no matter how hard i tried, at age 7 i just couldn't sustain a visualization of a blank white movie screen in my mind. even still i was able to get results, and to this day i do not use any such technique.

the most important thing you can 'do' is just let your mind run its course without being engaged or involved in what it does. eventually the thoughts dwindle away and what you're left with is that spontaneous insight / intuition phase where the higher senses kick in.

there is no such phase in meditation where you truly think nothing -- i find this to be a misnomer. instead, your mind fills with thoughts you do not need to do any 'work' to create -- they just arrive. this is what, upon further analysis, becomes intuitive data if you can record it.

i found more dark entities invading my space and more difficulties "loving them away" before and during meditation ... (mr.wilcock even mentions something similar in is interview)

as well as something very profound ... at one point i think it my have been possible that i have channeled ... i have a couple of people who seem to think this notion is true as well ... being that i channeled entities that spoke to them but myself have a very vague recollection of what occurred during those points in time ... the others claimed that i had spoken in a different voice and told them thing that i could have never known ...

though these experiences for me were slightly disconcerting after the events i found myself very disassociated, darned and depressed ... this lead me to suppressing these events from happening having been prone to depression in the past ...

once again i reach out to this community for any helpful insights you might have

love always

dw: yes... i had preliminary breakthroughs of channeling as well, before my time, and it had a similarly disconcerting effect on me. i remember writing lyrics for a song i ended up doing with jude and it was totally channeled.

i knew something was up when i was re-reading it at a friend's house and a thunderstorm seemed extremely well-timed with the emotional nuances of the lyrics. i actually found it pretty disturbing. the whole thing was a dialogue between a man and the devil, where the devil was explaining how fully his dominion over the world had become without our ever even realizing it. this writing also did not have an 'up' ending... it just ended with the man screaming, "no, it cannot be true."

if these talents are meant to go somewhere, then it's best to take it slowly and put no expectations on yourself. regular meditation practice and diligent focus on the positive is the best way to proceed.

furthermore, there is almost no such thing as a totally 'clean' channeling. 99.9% of everything out there is a collaborative effort between, in the most basic terms, the conscious, subconscious and superconscious mind.

peace be with you -

- david