[Emunsesoxmete]

you all make me laugh inside just now reading this. "beautiful!", i think to myself, beautiful that there are you out there that have such an incredible ability to care that you share your deepest feelings! its really very inspiring and touching. and i think alot of what ego is about, whether under egoed or over egoed, is about acceptance of self with love. ya know, just like all that loving acceptance and understanding we probably find ourselves giving to others daily, we need to be able to give it to ourselves. and that will of course allow us to truly love others more.

acceptance is love, and ya, accepting our own selve's little ego quirk-ee-dee-dooz can be a bit uncomfortable at times, to say the least, yikes! and like penny said, it has helped us survive through a very scary world growing up, a masquerade that has been a friend when fear and hurt has confused us blind. and these steps of re-finding ourselves is no easy gain as well. i also think alot of our ego problems have been influenced also by all the confused energies around us, just through absorbing stuff that isn't even related to us personally. we pick up other's ego problems and fears just by being in the atmosphere. we all hit off each other.

and yeah, i agree shelley, definately types out faster than it occurs, but i guess the good part is that by just working on it all little by little, steady as she goes, the pieces come together. thank god intention is at least half the battle.., and reading your guy's words shows your intentions are so sincere and honest, that the rest is inevitably beautiful and growing!

this all reminds me of a couple weeks back while driving down the road and suddenly catching wind to my run away thoughts and ego. i was like, "what!!?, wait a minute, what the heck is going on here!?" :d i just stopped and took a good look at the situation, and then to my surprise, i just started laughing my blank off. it was like i just broke down and let it out, literally laughing at myself from the disbelief, irony and ridiculousness of it all.., it was just too funny. i thought, omg, if my little head is capable of soo much innerworkings and goings on at the same time i am aware and trying to become my true self, i either need a shift right here and now, or just pack me up and put me away. i was of course joking light heartedly with myself, but serious as heck at the same time. the difference was, i wouldn't let it go into the negative. i took a deep breath, got a something 11 on the clock, and had a good laugh at myself, but with myself. a whole heck of alot has been easier since.

ya, and like kimberly said, or thoreau, i should say, to see that beauty and the gift of love juxtasuposed inside it all is what does matter.

thanks for sharing your stories, fellow humans out there, i enjoyed that alot.

peace and light,
michelle