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jeremy--i, too, have been having many of my dark aspects surfacing--most of them were parts of me that i booted out because i'd decided that was "no way to be." but, the truth is that i created them, and even though i tried to deny and stifle them, they persisted; and, ironically, through them i have been gaining a wisdom about myself unlike any gift imagineable. they are as important as my light aspects--i needed both, not just one.

i realize that as much as i desire to think of "negatives" like illuminati, etc. as beings outside of me--they are in fact, showing up outside of me only because they are within me first. these dark aspects played some awful parts for me purely out of love, and those were some painful parts done out of terror and blindness (me--the little human part feeling powerless and like a puppet on a string, never knowing what she was going to slam into next)--they/i need me to acknowledge their sacrifice--the cross they/i bore all for me.

simply, it's time for me to quit hating certain parts of myself. it's time for unconditional love and infinite compassion--i've been comforting, hugging and supporting myself all day long. i realized creator little human was the one creating all the pain and havoc in my world but i wasn't fully aware that i was doing so to such an extent--i've had glimpses, but i wasn't able to take full responsibility for it until recently. it takes a great deal of exercise in self-compassion in order to allow myself to "go there."

little human penny is feeling pretty awful and humbled by the enormity of what she's done--but the other more multi-dimensional aspects are helping me to see it's all just illusion, and that no one, nothing is hurt when it all is said and done. this human experience was set up so that no one would really be harmed.

jeremy, i think we're approaching a tremendous leap and change in our consciousness--this is why all our self-created demons are raging to the surface. when i take ownership for their being it brings them back inside me and they lose their power to affect me. all the emotions are part of the process--so, trust yourself and allow the emotions and observe (the gift is always in there)--

thanks so much for sharing this. donald's post on "healing within to heal without" has been a tremendously helpful reminder to me, as well. i've had a tendency to be pretty hard on little human me--and she was just blindfolded and searching...but i'm proud of her because she did it--she kept going and went places that were difficult to even contemplate going. i have a feeling you, jeremy, and many others here are finding a similar thing. it takes a great deal of faith and courage to walk the human experience...

much love and appreciation,
penny