[natahololll]

hey there linsybyster!

i can't say that i've ever gone out-of-body while conscious, but i certainly have experienced them during sleep, and through the door that lingers between sleep and waking. and yes it can be frightening. when one has existed their whole life as a particularized egoic personality, and has been provided no experiential understanding that we are infinitely more than that, to taste of that infinity threatens all that has gone before. at least to the ego.

it has been decades since i've had a conscious oobe (it is my understanding that we oobe nightly) and one of the last i experienced still stands out as the most frightening event in my life. i've come to honor that as a very high experience because, while the fright was extreme and real to me, i have come to discern that the fear was mine. it was not intended or created. there wasn't any threat to me, just a lack of understanding and allowance which permitted fear to rule my moment.

at the same time as that was the most frightening experience in my life, another oobe counts as the highest and most profound. i'll try to relate it without being over-long for this post.

i was fifteen or sixteen and i awoke at sunrise one morning, with this wonderful golden light pouring through my window. it bounced around off the gold bedspread, and my saxophone, and the whole room was filled with wonderful golden orange light. i was physically completely relaxed and started back to sleep. awareness gave way to the nothing of sleep for a moment and then i became aware of a charge, like a current, running through my body, head to toe (or toe to head, i don't remember which, just that it was a one-way flow) and all of the sudden i was able to "see" that beautiful golden room! but my eyes were closed. i was perceiving, not seeing. my mind was as clear and empth of any thought as i have ever experienced it, and from that place came one very distinct and clear thought. i couldn't say it was frank-o's thought, so it came from something larger than that. and that thought was "i want to love." and i'm not talking a 15-year-old wanting a girlfriend. it was more that i wished to convey the highest love to everything. and with that thought the current that was running through my body changed, and instead of flowing in one direction the current began to run from my head, toes, feet, arms and legs in toward my heart area, i assume my "literal" heart chakra, and when the flow merged there i emitted a golden pillar of light that i know went on infinitely, both up to the stars and down through the core of the earth. it was truly, blissful and wondrous, and i can still at times tap into that golden reserve, that pillar of love, because it is infinite.

i rode that ecstatic pillar for as long as seemed right, and then the current began to fade, the pillar went away, and my "sight" went to black again...and i opened my physical eyes to that still golden room.

despite the emotional charges of these experiences for "frank-o" when he returned from them, the experiential knowledge that we go on and are of a much different nature in total than that which we experience here in 3d is why i am even aware of something like divine cosmos, and here posting today. and i am ever graced and grateful to be in such a position of awakening and having so many to share this with.

so, scary is scary, to be sure, but stay with this! don't be frightened over-long! the potential of these experiences for revealing soul to you and for providing a foundation of strength and faith, particularly in times such as we live, the times, is enormous, wonderful, and outweighs all fear (which is just a tool for catalyst through which to grow anyway!)

love, blessings, and abundance,

frank-o (in 3d)