[jacknates]

dear ceara, hello. yes, i have had about 5 or 6 dreams like this, and its funny, but they have for the most part, either taken place at my childhood home, or somewhere in that neighborhood. that is always baffling to me as to why there. and the dreams always have that feel of strange real. and, its funny, because just last night, i remembered a sidewalk area where i walked as a kid, and remembered a spirit that was there helping me.., a very loving spirit, it brought a few tears up remembering that..,anyways..

in one of those dreams, i remember, when seeing the nuclear type bombs beginning to explode, i am not only not afraid, but feeling much relief and actual excitment at the thought of going "home", meaning dieing. i can see the bright flash of light from the bomb coming toward me, and the heat of it, and i literally melt suddenly into a white light dimension floating very fast to "heaven".

heres the kicker with that dream. while in the white light, i see my children, also flying fast through the whiteness. but, instead of being happy, i was suddenly extremely overtaken with the most heartwrenching feeling of missiing them, how much i loved them on this earth plane, and that now it would all be a different thing, even though they were still with me. i literally felt them being pulled away, and experienced such a huge feeling of regret at not being able to spend more time with them in this plane of existence, even though we were always so very closely linked with love. i knew they would be with me in this whatever new dimension, but it would not, could not, even with all the negativety on this planet, be the same as the particular beautiful possibilities one has here on this plane of existence.

the third dimension suddenly seemed sooo much more precious than i could have ever imagined. i remember begging the light to please just let me go back with them some more, feeling sooo much more love that could still be had between us, even though, like i said, we were all already so close and loving, but, it was as if, even if i did my very best of best of the best with them, it still would never come close to how much endless unique love one could truly experience here.

i woke up.., thankful for the third dimension, haha,.., and feeling nothing more than wanting to love all i possibly could, them, and every timeless possibility, hey, only available in this plane. earth, and all her troubles became more like a place like "heaven" herself.

its funny also, how i have always only known of ets as friends, have even heard 'them' speaking in me with information of utter love and light, but in these kind of dreams, they are a bad group of ets in black ships trying to take over and destroy, and seem to be very unfeeling types. i still don't know why i have dreampt that, but so have others i know as well.

mmmm, up for grabs!

much love and light,
michelle