[Clarissa]

there is doubt why i related to your dream as i did. i certainly hope i did not interfere, with the true meaning of your dream or side track you from truly discovering what it meant.

i was very much awake when the following happened, which in my reality is no different then my dreams, because i have had so many waking visions and never really understood what they were or the purpose of these so called insanities. but thanks to all the connections i have now made with the truth, i expect the following to take place again. i was at work when this happened and i have never quite been able to put this many pieces together since that time. but as of late, i certainly have gathered enough thoughts and truths to once again be able to do this. thanks to all of you.


i walked to the restroom to splash my face and collect my thoughts. as i lowered my head into the large wash station, which was made of terrazzo, i noticed that the little bits of stone in it, which i was focused on, clearly looked like the number 12. i thought, r ~ relationship. then it hit me like a mushroom cloud of thought, something i had never experienced.
one thought connecting to two, connecting to ten, creating hundreds of thoughts, connecting to thousands, creating tens of thousands and thousands more thoughts. it was a chain reaction of thought that i could see, as if my eyes were turned inward facing the back of my head.
the sensation of a near death experience was the only concept my now clear and focused mind could relate it to. that mushroom cloud of thought, physically, actually seeing the synaptic connects in my brain. i had never experience anything like this before and it was truly overwhelming.
in a mere instant, all of the universal knowledge i had tapped into over the past seventeen years became crystal clear, and one statement said it all: “now that i know the secret, there is nothing that i lack.”

it's been over fifteen years since this happend, i guess i'm about due to refocus again. thanks!