[Grennios]

find something which you feel comfortable around -- a rock, a pendant, a symbol, a piece of furniture, but preferably small -- and understand that this comfort, this safety, is "creating" a psychic shield around you. indeed you can do this without any object to aid you, just as most ritual-created phenomena are totally possibly without ritual, but, like a ritual, the object may aid you in your belief and ultimately in your own creative power.

this sounds exactly like a psychic attack and i've experienced it too... though by my understanding i have some extra help in shielding from this which typically makes the attacks transient in nature.

it sounds to me like you don't know what to believe. all i ask is that you find a way to believe in something and let that something shield you while you continue to shine. personally i use rocks of various kinds and either carry some in my pockets or wear them as pendants (a topaz). do the rocks themselves actually do anything? it doesn't matter because they make me feel more safe and that's what makes the difference.

-charles