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i certainly know that feeling of fear and uncertainty when trying to meditate and/or call out to my "homies". i've felt for years that the earth is not my original home and when looking at the stars i feel incredibly homesick. however, when i've tried to meditate, i've failed repeatedly. i can't relax properly. i get scared of what might happen. i don't know how to overcome this. i know there are times when i enter an "altered state" when i'm doing mundane chores like washing dishes, or vacuuming when i sort of space out and lose time, though. about the only thing i can do is read about otherselves having these experiences. i've watched the movie "close encounters of the thrid kind" so many times and wish i could have an experience like they did.

one thought i had when i was reading the latest news david posted about ufos being seen so much more these days....it just goes to show how close we are getting to 4th density, because ra said that 4th density chose to be invisible to 3rd density. if we can see them, that must mean people are becoming 4th density beings and can see them more often. jax